I find my self wondering sometimes how funny it is that it just takes one second, one word, one action, one thought to change the course of your life. It took me listing to esthero in my economics class to really think about things. What does this world really have for me? What do i have to offer it? I am of average height, a bit on the heavy side and i’m not one to light a room with my wit and charm either. All i can offer it is my thoughts.
As humans, we are cursed with inhibitions and fear. Fear of not being excepted or liked. Inhibitions from speaking our minds in approval. I have many fears, some that most people have not even thought about. Let me share with you my biggest fear. I like many of us, fear death. But what i fear most of all, are the moments before death. The last seconds before i slip into eternal slumber. The fear of my last thoughts. What will I think about: How horrible it is to be dying? Did i turn off the stove? Will i wake up in another place? Or how gross it will be that i will soil my self moments after death. What worries me is knowing that my mind could be jumping around to different things, and not the things that i want to think about. I don’t want to be thinking about the things that i regret doing and the things that i could have done. I just want to think about my future family and how blessed i was to have known them. Hopefully, smiling about the great life i lived.
When the time will come when i will have to worry about these things are of course uncertain, but what is certain, is that we have a choice. A choice to better our selves. To save ourselves. My advice to you, my audience, is that you can always change yourself. Always. So, cheers to the future.
